Addicted

Its coursing through my vein’s ,
Every time I’m without it,
I need it again,
The feeling is so strong constantly reminding me I need it.,
My mind and body thinks I’m unable to do without it,
I can see that its hurting me,
but its a habit, a drug,
and a pleasure mixed into one,
I have no clue when I got this way,
I don’t even know why I started,
It was harmful right from the beginning and I knew it.
Life is so full of bad decision’s,
My question is how do I make the same one multi time’s a day,
If it was as easy as just stopping I would have been did that,
but its not.
I get these bad headache’s and bad mood swings.
Its just so much easier to light one up and feel at peace
with myself for a brief second,
I know about cancer,
but I figure cancer doesn’t know about me,
Sometimes I try to rationalize and say,
“well we’re all dying anyway I just might get there faster”.
Wrong answer!
You shouldn’t purposely harm yourself,
I try to quit but then I start again,
Its a legal drug that I can smoke in public,
Now how cool is that?
You can tell I have a problem and its not going away,
I got a cough now year round,
I been had the urges,
and that patch is like going from a drug addict to a alcoholic,
There’s no doubt I want to stop,
but I’m so unique,
I need a unique way,
Maybe I’ll just pray all the cigarette’s disappear from the face of the earth,
Whats the chance’s of that?
I’m Addicted

About csincere

How long have you been writing poetry? -Over 20+years. How did you first discover poetry? - I discovered poetry by accident around 8 or 9 years old. I was taking a science test and there was a question about the moon. My answer was in kind of poetic form and the teacher thought it was great. My answer was " The moon is like a flashlight and the sun turns it on". After that I kept writing poetry and started to read a lot of books. I also listen to a bunch of music, all kinds of music. Mainly R&B music. I put song lyrics in the exact same category as poetry. When did you first get anything published? -I was 12, a family member was in a contest at work. She was 16 years old working at a clothing store in the mall. It was a tshirt contest. They had to write a slogan or a poem. I wrote it she won, I got nothing except a bigger interest in poetry. I still remember some of the poem " Thank you expiration, For all your dedication, Throughout the years, You have dried tears, You've always been there, To protect and care" . that's all I remember. Why do you write? - 1. It helps me with stress. 2. I like being heard. 3. I love poetry I see some of my poetry like abstract art. I know what I'm feeling when I write them but I want the meaning to be open to interpretation. Also poetry as art to me not competition, every poet that loves poetry is great. I just love to write poetry, everything I write isn't about me personally. I just try to think of how I would feel in different situations. So even though every poem isn't about me it's still my feelings.
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3 Responses to Addicted

  1. Oh am touch by this poem this blew me away. Thank you for taking the time to share these write up through these words.

    These words are painted in truth, experience and perspective. I especially love how you started it and how you ended the write up. Beautifully written and as I read through again on each line I was amazed . Each word you used are true and reflective of my personal encounter with people .

    This produced a smile on my tired face after a long day. You’re appreciated.

    You are welcome

    #PATRICKSTORIES
    Peace ✌and Love ❤

  2. roninjax says:

    Honest sharing. I think all of us have various addictions that we have to deal with or work through. I believe support from friends, family and God’s strength and help certainly help. We never give up but keep persevering. Life is worth it. Blessings along the Way!

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