Addicted

Its coursing through my vein’s ,
Every time I’m without it,
I need it again,
The feeling is so strong constantly reminding me I need it.,
My mind and body thinks I’m unable to do without it,
I can see that its hurting me,
but its a habit, a drug,
and a pleasure mixed into one,
I have no clue when I got this way,
I don’t even know why I started,
It was harmful right from the beginning and I knew it.
Life is so full of bad decision’s,
My question is how do I make the same one multi time’s a day,
If it was as easy as just stopping I would have done that,
But its not.
I get these bad headache’s and bad mood swings.
Its just so much easier to light one up and feel at peace with myself for a brief second,
I know about cancer,
But I figure cancer doesn’t know about me,
Sometimes I try to rationalize and say,
“well we’re all dying anyway I just might get there faster”.
Wrong answer!
You shouldn’t purposely harm yourself,
I try to quit but then I start again,
Its a legal drug that I can smoke in public,
Now how cool is that?
You can tell I have a problem and its not going away,
I got a cough now year round,
I been had the urges,
and that patch is like going from a drug addict to a alcoholic,
There’s no doubt I want to stop,
but I’m so unique,
I need a unique way,
Maybe I’ll just pray all the cigarette’s disappear from the face of the earth,
Whats the chance’s of that?
I’m Addicted

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3 Responses to Addicted

  1. Oh am touch by this poem this blew me away. Thank you for taking the time to share these write up through these words.

    These words are painted in truth, experience and perspective. I especially love how you started it and how you ended the write up. Beautifully written and as I read through again on each line I was amazed . Each word you used are true and reflective of my personal encounter with people .

    This produced a smile on my tired face after a long day. You’re appreciated.

    You are welcome

    #PATRICKSTORIES
    Peace ✌and Love ❤

  2. roninjax says:

    Honest sharing. I think all of us have various addictions that we have to deal with or work through. I believe support from friends, family and God’s strength and help certainly help. We never give up but keep persevering. Life is worth it. Blessings along the Way!

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