Its coursing through my vein’s ,
Every time I’m without it,
I need it again,
The feeling is so strong constantly reminding me I need it.,
My mind and body thinks I’m unable to do without it,
I can see that its hurting me,
but its a habit, a drug,
and a pleasure mixed into one,
I have no clue when I got this way,
I don’t even know why I started,
It was harmful right from the beginning and I knew it.
Life is so full of bad decision’s,
My question is how do I make the same one multi time’s a day,
If it was as easy as just stopping I would have done that,
But its not.
I get these bad headache’s and bad mood swings.
Its just so much easier to light one up and feel at peace with myself for a brief second,
I know about cancer,
But I figure cancer doesn’t know about me,
Sometimes I try to rationalize and say,
“well we’re all dying anyway I just might get there faster”.
Wrong answer!
You shouldn’t purposely harm yourself,
I try to quit but then I start again,
Its a legal drug that I can smoke in public,
Now how cool is that?
You can tell I have a problem and its not going away,
I got a cough now year round,
I been had the urges,
and that patch is like going from a drug addict to a alcoholic,
There’s no doubt I want to stop,
but I’m so unique,
I need a unique way,
Maybe I’ll just pray all the cigarette’s disappear from the face of the earth,
Whats the chance’s of that?
I’m Addicted